i feel i need to express my feelings SOMEwhere.

okay so. tomorrow morning it will be 7 days since you, sammy (because he can read) will have been missing.
I've cried to no end every. single. day. until my head feels like it wants to explode.
i've walked around all the neighbourhoods by national school down till the bridge behind the houses calling until my voice has hurt.
Your toys are still lying around, unused, your water cup is still in my room, untouched since the day you left, i leave the windows open every night in case you come back, your favourite treats are still in my drawer waiting for you..
i'm so scared and have a panic attack every other hour because i'm so worried
i am
losing
my
mind

please god please return sammy back home to me
he is my best buddy and little furry son
my brave lion, the thing i miss most and associate with HOME

T_T
i can't even continue to type because i will cry again and my head really cannot tahan anymore
i miss you chammy cham..



p.s. Another consequence of this male cat behavior is that Tom can easily become lost. In the excitement of the expedition he takes no notice whatever of the route he took and can find himself bewildered as to where he is when the night of passion is over.

fuck i feel worse.