Nyeh.

There are some days when i want to kick myself in the nuts but i dont have any nuts so i shall verbally abuse myself and complain =.=
i feel like the most useless stupidest and.. yes i could go on forever.
I nearly cried when i thought about all the things that could have been but aren't -_-
Yes it may be bullshit stuff but i am ambitious (at times) and never go through with what i want so i only have myself to murder. ...

1. I AM NO LONGER EDITOR OF NEWLETTER/MAGAZINE YADADADA.
Yes i was useless and lazy when i WAS the editor but still . enjoyed the title even if i didnt deserve it =.= . Bit of possessiveness there. Doesn't mean i hate cass because she is editor now, in fact she totally deserves it but NYAGH. IF ONLY.

2. I didnt get to be President of Interact.
yes im not even in the interact club but i desperately wanted to join and i did join last year so if i had just joined again this year im sure i would have got it. Miss Donna loves me too so that helps. or wouldve helped. ugh.
No i dont hate yii fang for getting the title either but at least she will know why i was like why YOU ? when she told me she got it. UGH. IF ONLY.

3. Hmm i'm pretty sure i had a longer list.
okay i remember.
ENGLISH. yes now its always like cass/tash beat me in exams or anything else - QUIIIITEE frustrating.
i blame myself 100 % for it not them

4. I hate the fact im too lazy to try and stop being lazy. -_-

5. i wouldve liked to be MC but cass got it =.= i blame myself for not making myself known.

6. I DIDN'T JOIN THE DEBATE THING. I WANTED TO BUT UGH. now i have to sit and watch as the team goes to compete in australia. and stay in an awesome hotel that has waterslides and beaches and shopping and licorice and .. Regret can be so time consuming.


I know i actually had a much much longer list than this but what the hell i already feel better.
My painting that took me 4 painstaking hours to do got drawn on. Most likely by some LODGE RETARD. THAT PAINTING WAS SUPPOSED TO GO IN MY PORTFOLIO TO CAMBRIDGE. CAMBRIDGE. THANKS.
i wish you woke up with your lips sewn together so you can't scream as i carve the flesh off your legs in strips.
Or you wake up in a room with no limbs so that when i stride towards you with a knife you cant run and all that you can hear is our own screaming.
goddamn lodge kids